| Tuesday, April 17th, 2007 |
| 9:49 pm |
things to do before I die
stay overnight at the waverly sanitarium arguely the most haunted place on earth Kick a scarey leatherman right in the balls go bungeejumping fire a desert eagle learn knife throwing have my body painted eat a dozen tacos in one sitting Insult a celebrity to their face incite a racewar of somekind out drink a pornstar Release a commcercially available corporate safety video Punch a clown go to a nine to five job wearing a fursuit probably more to come in the future if oyu ahve any ideas do tell |
| Saturday, April 7th, 2007 |
| 10:08 am |
feeling accomplished
almost 500 veiws and 4 "loves" for my movie in one day I;m feeling really good now. |
| Friday, April 6th, 2007 |
| 12:31 pm |
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| Thursday, March 29th, 2007 |
| 12:21 pm |
following my ambition hesitantly
okay if you haven;t heard yet i;m a video production major, and I want to one day make really scarey hor movies. Well I;m triyng to enter this short film contest called Film Your Issue. basicly I ahve to make a short film (at most 60 seconds long) about a social/global issue that you feel strongly about. Now with the movie I am making I honestly think I could win or atleast be a finalist. But a part of me isn;t sure if i want to win. The main prize for winning is an internship at universal studios in CA, now haivng that on my resume would be a huge help for my career. but I looked into it and it's not a paid internship adn I;d need to pay my own way there and for housing and transportaiton while I'm there. and I;m not sure if my family can afford that much, I know if I won my parents would sacrfice so I could go but I;m not sure if I want to put them through that. when I finish the movie I iwl post it and have alink so everyone can see it..a dn when it time for the voting i:m gonna pressure everyone i know to vote for me. |
| Tuesday, March 27th, 2007 |
| 12:51 pm |
ever worry about your own character?
I like this guy alot which is cool cause it looks like he likes me to but theres a problem. He;s got money, I mean loads of money tons of money, and I;m not sure how I feel about that. Usually this wouldn't be a problem but my last interest didn;t work out because he was poor I mean like couldn't pay his own rent poor. It jsut got in the way of us seeing as I'm a college student without a job, I really don't think that I should be the one with the finacial security. so with this added I'm actually kind of worried if I like this guy because he's funny and a great guy.. or because he's filthy rich and has a chronic heart condition? |
| Thursday, March 22nd, 2007 |
| 3:44 pm |
kinda scarey
my dads a teacher at a middle school. a few days ago there were a few incidents, three incidents to be exact. in two bathrooms and a girls lockeroom they found puddles of blood and razors. aoarently they have a real cutting problem there. freaky huh |
| Monday, March 19th, 2007 |
| 10:32 pm |
to whom it may concern (you know who you are)
before I start I want to say this is for a real person not some faggy poem about society Im done.. I;m finished with all your baggage and your complexes. I know you;ve had hard times in your life but thats no excuse for how you;ve treated me. I realy had feelings for you and all you did was use them against me so you could belittle and humilate me. you Chose to stay friends with the man who raped me because it would be "weird" when you both ran into eachother in the bar. then you tell me not to judge him to harshly when I say I;m glad he;s dieing slowly, ainfully, and alone from liver failure. You tell me choice of going into video production for my career was "fucking stupid" and told me my talent meant nothing. I;m sick of your mis guided lectures and criticisms about my life and how I live it. I hate that you cal me a sick pervert for being a furry, meanhwile the only sex you have is on second life... yeah I may be having abnormal sex but would you call your hand and keyboard normal? you belittle my lifestyle because I eat unhealthy foods and actually enjoy some of the more inexpensive items. Well unfortunately I don;t have someone there to buy the best foods for me. and as for my exersise routine, atleast I have a good excuse, I actually do somehting my time, what do you do because god knows you haven;t held any kind of job in over ten years. you knwo our diabetic and your health jsut keeps gettting worse and worse and you do NOTHING to change your life. But to be truely honest the worst thing about you is, while you have no problem sitting on your high horse and judging me and belittling everyhting about me, you can;t take a single negative thing about you without getting violent and blowing everything out of proportion. so to you I say I;m done with everyhting about you I;d rather not have C then have to deal with you |
| Thursday, March 8th, 2007 |
| 2:50 pm |
yet another nervous break down
had a break down yesterday morning. I was filling out my schedule for the next two weeks (midterms and spring break), and suddenly it hit me that i had more projects then time. I dunno I just started shaking, of course the fact that I had quick smoking the day before didn't help. so I got back to my dorm and tried to start working on rewriting the essay for english. I sat there for over an hour trying to tihnk ofhow to improve it, I couldn;t tihnk of a single thing. So I switched to another project building my resume so I can get an internship for the summer, again nothing I tried everyhting i couldn;t get any work done. It was like I had blown a fuse. Another factor is that my asshole roommate doesn;t understand the idea of headphones he blasts hiphop music till 3 am when i have morning classes. yeah thats another nervous breakdown to ad to my list, theres parts of the day I don;t rmember I have a flash of me smoking a marlborough red but i don;t rmember how i got it. Just thought you guys might like to know |
| Tuesday, February 27th, 2007 |
| 12:43 pm |
burial without Eulogy: my grandfather
my grandfather died and now it looks like he won't be getting a eulogy form anyone, not me not his kids. No one cna think of anyhting positive to say about him, and that does actually get to me. I mean I only saw him 2-3 times a year but my dad and his sisters grew up with him there. shouldn't someone say something when he's buried. he wasn;t a great man not even a good man but certainly not a bad person. We've even looked inot those vague generlaized eulogies from a book and none of them in anyway shape or form apply. this is actually huritng me more than his death. just wanted to get that out there |
| Sunday, February 25th, 2007 |
| 10:51 pm |
I am depressed because I'm not sad
this morning my grandfather died after a very short battle with cancer, two weeks in fact. I was happy to find that he felt very little pain. my selfish little issue is that whie he is my grandfather, I don;t feel bad in any way shape or form. I;ve been racking my brain and I can;t think of a single possitive memory of him growing up. but at the same time I don;t have any negative memories of him either. he was always jsut there off to the side on a couch, reading a seed catalog, or a three week old newspaper. I was more distruaght over anna nicole smith than I was for my own grandfather. Is that wrong? |
| Monday, February 19th, 2007 |
| 11:16 pm |
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| Wednesday, February 7th, 2007 |
| 2:11 pm |
am really serious
thinking baout throwing a small furry party near foxwoods, a night at this hotel I know near it during the week of march 19nth probably either monday night or wensday night. maybe three or four people music, movies, a trip to the casino so it would be 21 +. It would be BYOB mostly is anyone interested? or have some god ideas for it? jsut somehting i think might be cool to do |
| Tuesday, February 6th, 2007 |
| 5:11 pm |
quickie
down with a head cold so I thought i:d take some dayquil... good idea if your doing hosework.. bad idea if your in a class sectretly watching japanese commecrials on youtube. I was sitting in my little desk, but I was on a bit of a trip. lucky it;s worn off now btu I was seirously messed up for a little bit. |
| Thursday, February 1st, 2007 |
| 5:39 pm |
plaguing my mind
I was wondering does anyone know any good furry non anime movies besides the recent blood and chocolate and the obivous disney movies? so far I ave a few horror movies into the woods the howling the gregory horror show girls night out queer duck the movie and my latest addition is KOTTENTAIL, a movie about a mutant killer bunny monster. I also own two porns with furry/fursuiter scenes in them. but they are straight. so I;m always looking to add to my collection any ideas? |
| Thursday, January 25th, 2007 |
| 10:29 am |
jsut a thought
I was thinking about having a furry party in the summer at my parents house, would be only a few furs I tinhk it would be alot of fun with the near by casinos and the lake by the house. so what would you guys think would be cool things to do for it? food movies what would be in a cool thing to have at the party? |
| Tuesday, January 23rd, 2007 |
| 7:23 pm |
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| 11:55 am |
a wacky molestaiton adventure
okay jsut heard about this story on the news. apparently out in the midwest a convicted 29 year old child molester impersonated a 12 year old boy and using fake birth certficates and other papers started attending a middle school. Get this it took two weeks before anyone realised the guy was almsot in his thirties, apparenty he used make up and shaved his body. now this is kind of funny enough but to me what was great was that the news guys interveiwed one of his teachers, she said he was "an average student.. kinda quiet , always turned his work in on time" no one is sure if he actualy touch anyone while he was attending the shcool so I tihnk it;s okay to laugh at this what do you think? |
| Monday, January 22nd, 2007 |
| 8:18 am |
back to normal and loving it
okay lets start off by saying I can finally eat real food again no more slim fas and mashed potatos meals. so steak here i come and speaking of which only a week r two more before I can give oral again.. I asked the dentist and she said I should wait until my gums heal before I try it again because it can be a bit of a truama to the mouth atleast if they are doing it the way I like it;s a trauma. now finally I;m back at colloge again, it;s funny how fast things went back to norma me and heavey and tuna got drunk and sang stupid songs and I kicked their ass at beer pong, and the guy that I room with went right back to being an asshole by blairing BET and falling asleepw ith it n so i couldn;t get to sleep. anyway I got a class in half an hour I love being a video produciton major I;m actually looking forward to a nine am class. later guys oh yeah and i won 100 bucks at mohegan sun on a slot machine. 7-7-7 is my lucky number |
| Thursday, January 11th, 2007 |
| 1:41 pm |
my mouth blood tastes yummy
hey there everyone jsut got my wisdom teeth out, the actuall expierence was not nearly as bad as it sounds because I got the old style novacaine and the kick your ass laughing gas. the whole procedure took about 10 minutes. at one point I closed my eyes and thought about how great those vibrations were before I relaised those wonderful vibrations was the dentist drilling through a tooth that had shattered in my gums. as soon as the gas wore off it was back to the harsh reality so far I;ve had blood poring out of my mouth been vomiting up my pain medication. the doctor perscribed me percaset which jsut kicked in believe it or not. my head spinns alittle and daytime television actually is entertaining. how ever if you don;t have a full stomach of dairy that will coat the inside of your stomach you will vomiting..... I learned that the hard way, jsut a side note whole mac and cheese shells looks the same going up as they do down... bt all this pain not takn away form my libido.. which is kinda scarey, I;m spitting up blood but still whacking off. I kept my teeth I;m thinking about making a choker with it or maybe a ring with the tooth where the jewel should be kinda thing |
| Friday, January 5th, 2007 |
| 9:11 am |
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